Wednesday, April 14

went out wif shi hui and shu the other day.gd friday.yah. was tokin to shihui and we were tokin abt some stuff.realised i dun actually haf much problems.or maeb its cos i dun see them as problems. wonder if dats gd or bad. does it show dat i dun take things seriously enough? but takin everything too seriously, esp ur worries, it isnt gd is it? wonder if im making excuses for myself for being too slack a person. wonder if i dun take anything seriously enough? but i do. i tink i do.

Posted by alalsil at Wednesday, April 14, 2004

Monday, April 5

just came back from sa,cos i went there to meet xiaoning.haix.saw a lot of ppl there.=)haha saw boo and kelley and ys together, as usual..haha 3 of them crazy wan lah. haha.den i wited and waited and waited..cos xn had pre- u sem... so damn boring waitin loh..but anyway,had a nice time tokin to xn.really missed tokin to her. yah, updated each other abt stuff,though it was more like she was doin the updatin.haha.although it wasnt like we toked 4 a veri long time but im still glad dat we tok, for the sheer pleasure of it.=)

hmm, i haf a theory as to y i miss sa more than i miss rg.not sayin dat i dun miss rg lah, n i miss my sec sch frens too. but when we left rg we alreadi noe dat we were leaving.i mean, duh rite, u r in sec 4 alreadi, u still goin to stay in rg meh.duh rite, u already knew u were graduating so u wld already haf prepared for leaving, u wld haf known dat u aint gonna see ur frens dat regularly anymore. so yah, whereas for sa rite, iwasnt prepared at all to leave. i really tot dat i was confirned, stamp plus money back guaranteed, dat im gonaa go back to sa. instead, on posting day, i see dat i had landed myself in ac instead.n seriously i din haf a wonderful impression on ac, still dun haf a gd one, though i wont say the same for my class. my class is really nice, n my frens tellme dat im lucky to get into ac wif 14 pts, acjc as 4th choice and no appealing needed to get into sc faculty.so yah. anyway, cos when i left sa, it was all a rush and i wasnt prepared.not prepared not to see my frens again. basically not prepared to let go yet. so it was pretty well, hard, i guess. so i miss everyone more and stuff.so yepp, i miss sa loh=)

Posted by alalsil at Monday, April 05, 2004

Thursday, April 1

i am so damn pissed off now loh..arrghh.wat the hell i cant even go out when i want to during the wkend..urrghh!!!yah, so wat if i haf makeup lect in the morning and tuition until 5 in the evening?cant i even go out wif my og mates after dat to celebrate my ogl's bdae?oh nonono..i cant cos i haf to go my grandma's hse to haf dinner, cos i haf gone out more times than i haf in a single yr when i was in sec sch, n dat was like nonexistent,cos i cant stay out till too late,blahblahblahblahblah...
everytime i said i wanted to go somewhere wif my og she wil nagnagnag.blahblah dis blahblah dat.wats her prob?i mean yah, of cos i shdnt go out till too late,n i shd go home for dinner and stuff, but excuse me, can i pls haf my life back? im not an outrageous person. it's not as if im gonna stay out till like 1am or anything.im a reasonable person loh, n i can say im veri guai, n i noe the limits loh. give me a break loh. i happen to miss my frens in sa cos i was veri unfortunately posted to a place i didnt want n dun want to go to.it came as a shock ni nvr tot dat i wldnt see my frens on a regular basis again, cos i assumed im gonna get back into sa. but no, i haf to be posted into ac, n i dun get to see my frens again.isnt dat just plain wonderful?let's cheer! so now ive decided dat i wont go out wif my og dis sat.thank you veri much!

Posted by alalsil at Thursday, April 01, 2004