Tuesday, May 31
yim a.l. today damn power. suppose to start lesson at 9am but she came at 10am. power right? make me go there so early, waste my time only lah. could have spent my time better sleeping loh. haha. in the end, end lesson at about 12 like that. wah, then wait for her to come that time, blardy hot lah, weather like crap like that. yah well. sian loh. some more of all lesson to attend, it had to be gp, my favourite, yah fey-vo-ret sa-jet lah. jia lat, damn sian...Posted by alalsil at Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Monday, May 30
I drift, I burn, I flyWhen you sing lullabies
I'm helpless, I'm yearning
I'm like the putty in your hands
I laugh, I dream, I cry
When you take me on a roller coaster ride
You see me through and through
You see just who i am
Just take my hand and
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you
I had a dream that i
was falling from the sky
At 90 miles an hour
I was bound to crash and die
But out of nowhere you came and rescued me
There must be some grace in the touch of your face
I'm so happy that I've found you
I'm no longer afraid
Oh ' cause you
Save me from this place
Heaven knows i'm falling
For you my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting
Before i met you
Life was slow-mo
So slow-mo
I thought i had it figured out
But you came and turned my whole world upside down
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows you've come to
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you
Waiting for you
"Save Me"
Corrine May
***********
I try to smile my tears away
i try to keep my cool
oh but one more door gets in my way
i feel like such a fool
trampled and bitter
my heart just wants to bleed and stop
believing in me
it feels like nothing is for certain
and that nothing comes for free
when they're lowering the curtain to the
Theatre of my dreams
I stumble adn i crumble and i'm
sinking to my knees but you
you cradle me
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms i find the strength
to believe in me again
Noise keeps chasing me
No matter where i go
oh and life likes pretending that it's
on a tv show
When it's hard to tell what's real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the world i seek
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
'cause when i'm wrapped up in your arms
Nothing else can touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like i can breathe again.
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms i find the strength
to believe in me again
"Safe in a crazy world"
Corrine May
Posted by alalsil at Monday, May 30, 2005
Sunday, May 29
想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到我自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见打你
感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离
这是爱情还是你太美丽
让我做出不可思议的事情
我只知道我要看你开心
我什么都愿意只要能够靠近你
*我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你开心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在哪里
我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手
我眼泪不停的流
我只好默默退后
我什么都没说静静忍着痛*
想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到我自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见打你
感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离
这是爱情还是你太美丽
我想是着了迷
只渴望能想靠近你
repeat * x2
"所以"
沈祥龙
haha, yes, guess who, it's sly.
Posted by alalsil at Sunday, May 29, 2005
Saturday, May 28
this was sometime back lah. i was bored and had nothing better to do, so i took the mini whiteboard at home and doodled on it. it looks something like this:
then my brother "improved" on it:
and then lastly, this is what my sis did:
my sis "kop" my idea and put on her blog, so im "kop-ping" her drawings to put on mine. haha. oh yah and i came up with this too for my sis (my sis drew it though), cos on her blog, it was a, er-hemm, a book...lame, it is:
yepp, a day of lameness.
Posted by alalsil at Saturday, May 28, 2005
ok gots lots to blog about but didnt get a chance to for the past few days for various reasons lah. haha
nice poster, eh?
so anyway, camelot on wednesday was great, really, contrary to what some people say that it was boring or whatever. damn large-scale production. it would have been better, if it had ended EARLIER. man, they should have started at 7, knowing that it was a freaking 3 1/2 hours long. for goodness sake, it ended at like 11.30pm and i was like, shit how the hell am i gonna get home. and in the end i had to trouble qq's mum, cos she had to send me home in the end. towards the end of camelot i was like, please let it end quick, quick, but besides that i enjoyed the show lah, its just that i woulda enjoyed it more if i didnt hafta worry about how i was gonna get home after the show. anyway, now i really know why ac drama always win at the syf and all that kinda of drama competition or whatever they take part in. damn, they are good. haha. the actors and actresses , they all can sing (or at least follow a tune), dance and act. the leads were good, but i must say that the lancelot guy ( i think his name is jared or something) outshone king arthur (leon) though. he's this alumni guy, and he was really much better than leon. not that leon wasnt good. he was, but mr lancelot was better.
the wednesday night audience sux though. laughed at every single thing the actors said. i mean, hello, grow up please. i dont think they were any sexual connotation to the actors' lines, but then the audience, who happened to be mostly students cos it was the $30 night, obviously arent very mature, just laughed and laughed. ok, so it was kinda funny at first, but it got damn irritating after a while. i mean yah, its funny, haha, ok, shut up. plus the group of people sitting behind us( me, shin, hafidz, mark) were damn irritating. laugh non- stop, kept kicking my chair so i couldnt sit comfortably, and basically being a complete nuisance. yepp. but otherwise, it was enjoyable.
oh yah, the costumes were great! totally love the costumes! seriously,, the costumes were damn elaborate(for a school production), especially shu ann's costumes (hope i didnt spell her name wrongly, haha). she had about a million costume changes or something (it was probably closer to 10), and each of them were damn nice. the set was beauutifuull. the props were very real and yepp, just plain elaborate.
thursday was rugby finals day. damn sian the whole day lah, didnt wanna go to the finals. only reason i went was to see my rj friends. dont give a damn if ac won or lost. cant stand most of the ruggers anyway. so zhuai, go around school making a whole hell lot of noise in the void deck, thinking they are so great just because they are ruggers. big deal. anyway, yah, they did win in the end. 23- 0. probably give them more incentive to be even more irritating now. at least this year they were motivated to win for wei khong. thats really kinda uh, yah, uh sweet. kinda touching actually.
anyway. met up with shi hui. haha. talked, watched rugby together with yuanshan. hehe. quite fun lah. haha.
yesterday, which was friday, was a really really slack day. first thing in the morning us ac students got a pleasant surprise, hehe. half-day for all! yeah man. actually dunno why i was even in school. friday was already a really slack day normally. 3 free periods and alot of crappy, mostly useless lessons. should have just pon school if i'd knew we were gonna be let off at 12.30pm. apparently it was a really last minute decision, cos even the teachers didnt know about it. the half day was for ac winning polo and rugby, and since we cant possibly have a whole day off (it was the last day of school yesterday), we got a half- day off! yeah. haha =D
after school, me, shin, qq and jacq went to mark's house early, since we were planning to go there after school at 4.30 anyway. mark planned this. kinda like last- day- of- school- so- lets- party! yepp. so we brought it forward. walked to jelita from his house and rented 50 first dates. great movie. very sweet, very funny movie. loved it.
then people started arriving like at, i dont know, 4 plus?? didnt take not of the time lah. taufiq charles amily suyi hafidz lawrence edwin. yah i think thats all of us. qq and jacq went off for their ushering duties for camelot and then came back. haha, qq actually finished the burger. pretty amazing considering that alot of people were saying that they were full half- way through that giantic burger. must know that qq normally finishes about half the amount of food that is on the plate. =D had a great time yesterday. had fun. played bball, table soccer, sat around to talk, and food was great. plus mark's family are all nice people and very hospitable. yepp, it was fun. =D
Posted by alalsil at Saturday, May 28, 2005
Tuesday, May 24
the class suddenly all xiao diao, suddenly singing cheena songs. hahaha, imagine ac people singing chinese songs, pretty funny yeah. haha.this is the song:
忘了有多久 再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了 是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局
"童话"
光良
feeling bored, decided to put up some song lyrics that i currently like.=)
说着笑着的午后 钟声一直在停留
风声静静躺着在诱惑
我一个人在角落 没有你陪伴的我
连寂寞都笑我太堕落
广场旁边的烟囱 烟雾弥漫你面容
我悄悄背颂你的温柔 喝着加温后的啤酒
这样唯美的镜头 是否只存在故事之中
在你的身后 时间把过去都带走
时间把镜头带走不假思索 回忆不放手
好想再跟你牵着手 牵着你给我的温柔
哭过以后眼泪还是不停的流
在你的身后 时间把画面都带走
时间把镜头带走不假思索 回忆不放手
好想再跟你牵着手 牵着曾有过的温柔
哭过之后眼泪还是不停的流
遇见彩虹 雨下过之后 街角出现彩虹
泪流干之后 有彩虹
"瓦解"
周杰伦
**********
原来只要几个字 改变了语气和方式
一句话 也有不同解释
原来只要几个人 改变了角色和位子
一份爱 也会完全变质
我在你身边 学习着当一个影子
(温柔太多余 这句话听了太多次)
倾听 你所有过往的悲伤和心事
(倾听 是他的责任早已经不关我的事)
或许 时间会改变这关系和位子
自从他出现开始 我就什么都不是(我连影子都不是)
是谁说过 别太温柔
你的事有我懂 伤有我痛 所以不怕寂寞
是谁说过 别再温柔
笑容不必谁懂 有他陪我 夜里不怕寂
是谁说过 要我别太温柔
终于 温柔的最后 结局是放手 放手后 剩什么
这样 你才能接受 他所有温柔 才拥有 笑容
是谁说过 爱过才懂
有些事不必说 伤不必痛 不过害怕寂寞
爱过才懂 不必再说
我会一个人走 带走寂寞 希望你好好过
温柔太多 也许只是种折磨
"别太温柔"
吴克群
**********
何もかも上手く行かない もどかしさに
焦る気持ちを押さえて
はがゆさと苛立たしさに 心乱れ
抱え込んだ膝小僧
悔しさをこらえて 涙に震えて
泣いた夜が明ける
そう
確かに君の言う通りだよ
今なら引き返せるけれども
つまらない意地を張り続けてる
歩き始めた以上 諦めない
もう一度 この手にチャンスを…
全てこの胸の中にしまっておこう
夢が叶うまで…
やるせない儚さに 身をゆだねるほど
そんな危うい時代に
あがいても手の届かない 岸を目指し
無我夢中で泳いだ
流れに逆らう 声も上げられない
行き止まりの場所で
そう
愛が全てを助けるとは
思わない だけど君の微笑み
心を癒すその唇に
立ち上がる勇気を もらうのさ
もう一度 この手にチャンスを…
川の流れは今日も激しいけれど
君の手は離さない
いつも この胸の中の愛を信じていよう
夢が叶うまで…
そう
愛が全てを助けるとは
思わない だけど君の微笑み
心を癒すその唇に
立ち上がる勇気を もらうのさ
確かに君の言う通りだよ
今なら引き返せるけれども
つまらない意地を張り続けてる
歩き始めた以上 諦めない
もう一度 この手にチャンスを…
川の流れは今日も激しいけれど
君の手は離さない
いつも この胸の中の愛を信じていよう
夢が叶うまで…
"RIVER"
石井滝也
**********
*Let go... let go... let go... I know I gotta let go
Let go... let go... let go... I know I gotta leave my past behind and
let go
Let go... let go... let go... I know I gotta be strong
You better know where you're going and know where you're from
Better believe it baby, let's go...
このまま忘れられなくて
閉じ込めてはいられなくて
踏み込んじゃいけないとわかってても
この気持ち どうしても gotta let you know
あつく 激しく 動く時間の中で
欲しいよ 君の heart, boy... 一瞬でも
**叶わない恋におぼれても このまま
夢から覚めたくない can't let go
ワガママでもいい 揺るがない愛がここに欲しいよ
come on now baby, come on...
yeah, yeah, yeah...
全ての始まりは"Hey how you doin'?"
yeah, yeah, yeah...
二人目と目が合い幕開けたストーリーライン
yeah, yeah, yeah...
そして、出会いと別れがセットかのように
yeah, yeah, yeah...
時は止まり、そばにいなくても I'm alright なんて強がり
でも隣にいないと心痛み
Just wanderin' if you feel the same 同じ
気持ちなのか確かめたくてマジ
空回りしてばかり ain't nobody でも
怖がらずに手綱ゆるめてこう
自由つかむため let go... I'm tellin' you
エゴは心のテロ...
甘く 静かに 時は流れてくのに
体が It's breaking apart boy どうして
***壊れそうな位 不安になるだけ
Oh why 独り占めしたくなるの
何も言わずに ただ君の愛がここに欲しいよ
*repeat
Love Train... に駆け込み乗車したけど
待ってはくれない理想から straight no chase
猛speedで現実まで run、run、run
止まる事無い時計の針
一度だけ使えるマジック、運命の鍵
love で逆転、あざ笑う logic
急がないと Mr.Heartbreak might stay
巻き戻す 色あせた記憶再生
Tell me how to be free
Oh baby, oh baby
Will my heart be free?
So tell me 一瞬でも
**repeat
***repeat
"let go"
m- flo loves yoshika
**********
どうして君は小さいなてで
傷を背負うとするのだろう
誰かの為だけじゃない
見失わないで
どうして僕は迷いながら
逃げ出すことできないんだろう
望むのは光射す灯を灯を
Find the way i輝く空に
手は届かなくても
響く愛だけ頼りに
進んだ道の先
光が見つかるから
You'll find the way
君は行った長い夢を見た
とても悲しい夢だったと
それでもその姿は
すこしも曇らない
僕は行ったないていんだと
ずっと側にいてあげるよ
欲しいのはだきあげる手を手を
Find the way 言葉なくても
飛ぶ羽根はなくても
みだす風に負けぬように
今誰より早く
痛みに気付けたなら
答えを出すこと
きっと全てじゃない
あせらなくていんだよ
あなたも
Find the way 輝く空に
手は届かなくても
響く愛だけ頼りに
進んだ道の先
光が見つかるから
Find the way 言葉なくても
飛ぶ羽根はなくても
みだす風に負けぬように
進んだ道の先
確かな光を見た
You'll find the way
"FIND THE WAY"
中島美佳
yepp this is non- english day.
Posted by alalsil at Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Sunday, May 15
went to jeremy's housewarming today and had a pretty fun time playing some racing game even though i keep losing, haha. pretty nice house, alot, and i mean ALOT of blue, but its nice. its like some underwater world or something. wow, sure could use his mum's walk- in wardrobe. heheh.then we left for kronos abt 4.10 maybe. kronos was great, good music and everything. flautist was good. pianist was even better. damn zai, the pianist. and jacq's new target is charles' conductor, hahaha. oh yeah, talked to charles after the concert, and after we(amily, suyi, jacq, mark and me) left him to his romantic with a certain somebody, mark and amil messaged him and offered charles' some tips to a romantic evening with ***. haha, was pretty funny. and now i gotta go sleep. heheh.
Posted by alalsil at Sunday, May 15, 2005
Thursday, May 12
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
"Collide"
Howie Day
Posted by alalsil at Thursday, May 12, 2005
Tuesday, May 10
今天不知道每个人是干吗的，好像都吃错药, like everyones temper very bad. kindalike on the edge, and theres some kinda tension in the air, 火药味是超重的。
and that includes me too. wasnt in a very good mood today. it was just
a bad kinda day lah. or then again, it might be just me being sensitive.
dunno lah.
anyway, today during assembly. kelvyna chan told the school that theres
this j2 guy in our school who had passed away. that makes 2 deaths in 2
weeks. yeah, cos there was a j2 girl as well who was suffering from leukemia
and had passed away. and then theres the school's rugger captain, wei khong,
who met with an accident at the start of the year, and now has to learn
everything from the basics again. all these really makes one think and reflect
on your life, dont they? its really sad to think of those people of my age
whose life have either ended or disrupted so unfortunately. really makes
me appreciate my own life (no matter how sucky it is at the moment) and
all those people and things that i love around me.
it feels like such a waste, that such young lives ended. i dun mean to criticize
(and pardon my phrasing and everything) but i feel that ending your own
life seems like a rather not smart thing to do. i mean if you have the courage
to end your own life, why dont you then have the courage to continue living
your life out. theres so much more ahead. 18 years of like, say 70 years
of life is such a small fraction of a persons time on earth. meeting with
incidents that upset, disappoint, anger, or watever, you in the first 18
years of your life will not be able to cancel out all the possible happiness
that may come out of the rest of your lifetime if you live it out.
but then again as bio lee said right depression is a very personal thing
that a person can snap out of by a person's own determination. the people
around may be able to provide some comfort with their encouragement, but
in the end, coming out of depression depends a lot on oneself.
hmm, all this is highly depressing and heavy. gotta go eat.