Saturday, October 29
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I cared too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed 'cos you came around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cos you channeled all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is...
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I cared too much
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I cared too much
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You should've never come around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cos you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I cared too much
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that cared too much
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
"scars"
papa roach
im trying to convince people that im cynical. *psycho-ing* i am cynical. i am cynical. i am cynical. i am cynical. i am cynical. i am cynical. i am cynical. i am cynical. i am cynical. i am cynical. *finshed psycho-ing*
i hope im not trying too hard. *cynical smile*
Posted by alalsil at Saturday, October 29, 2005
i was in the toilet doing er, stuff, and then i was just thinking that we shouldnt take things too seriously (the toilet is really a good place to think about things, besides uh, normal businesses.i always think in the toilet. er, haha. but seriously,it is a good place to think). maybe i should say that we shouldnt take everything too seriously. you invest in so much energy in something but when things dont turn out too well, you will only feel the pain disappointment, etc etc, even more intensely. its something like "希望越大， 失望也就越大" or "爬得越高， 跌得越痛", yah which ever one lah, take your pick. *lelong lelong* oops, is my cynicism showing? haha. of course there are stuff you have to be serious about. what that would be, i dont really know. i guess, along the way, or to put it really cliched-ly, as i travel on in life's journey *puke* (damn, i feel like throwing up just writing that down
), i would find out, that is, stuff, relationships, blah, etc, whatever, that are important to me and should be taken more seriously. right now, that would be that damnable exams with the big, horrible, disgusting, etc etc (other assorted names that can ever possibly be thought up to describe the horrble-ness of it.) capital A. bleagh. but i still think that one should always be prepared that things may not turn out the way you expect or want. life's no bed of roses man. gotta be prepared. yepp. not exactly positive thinking, i know. just being practical =D.
but then when i think some more in the toilet right, being not very serious, that means not really committing all my feelings to stuff right, doesnt that make me a very 没有立场的人吗? 我不觉得我是一个没立场的人， 只是对事情的想法比较看得开一点。 看不开的人在遇到不利的事情时大概会受到很大的影响吧。 这样的话最受伤的人还不是自己吗？ self defence mechanism i would say.
basically, im just crapping. haha. random thoughts. dont think i make much sense. havent thought through enough yet, i guess.
yepp, just random thoughts. very random
just feel like putting this, haha. "so like joanna" i bet that's what you're thinking right? dont fake loh.
Posted by alalsil at Saturday, October 29, 2005
Tuesday, October 18
if u guys want the baccalaureate(i hate that word, so long)pictures, go click the flikr badge thingy. but thats not everything cos ive used up my upload space for the mth. that is if anyone ever comes to my blog.Posted by alalsil at Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Saturday, October 15
supposed to have extra gp lesson yesterday morning at 8. so that obviously means that i had to get up early, seeing as how i take about a year to get to school. i reached the mrt station, passed the gates and saw ben. and then he told me that gp was cancelled. lucky i didnt board the train yet loh. but still wasted my $$ already loh. like seriously, thank you loh. i wake up early and then you tell me i dont have to go school. what the hell lah.
do you know how important sleeping is, har har?!?!
but then i went home and slept for 3 more hours anyway. hehe. ^^
oh yah jay chou's new album coming out on november 1st. yeah!! it's called <十一月的萧邦>, ie, november's chopin.
Posted by alalsil at Saturday, October 15, 2005
Wednesday, October 12
假面具下的你...每个人都有自己看不到的缺点~你又知不知道呢?
一起撕下假面具看看~是不是真的你@@
电玩游戏是个虚拟世界，在其中我们可以选择自己的身份，化身成喜欢的角色，随时变换个人特质，发挥各种潜能。选择一种身份，好像也选择了自己的命运，你会挑哪一个角色来开创自己另一个生命版图？
A皇族
B骑士
C精灵
D魔法师
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◆选择Ａ的人
你有点矜持，故意表现得酷酷的，与人保持距离，希望这样的表现可以得到更多的注意。这是一种常见的逆向作法，如果奏效，全部的人主动贴近你，你会很得意，并且将下巴抬得更高。可是如果不幸失效，根本没人理会你在做什么，你马上就会变成斗败的公鸡，垂头丧气，也打不起精神。
◆选择Ｂ的人
出外一条龙，在家一条虫，这是你的标准写照吧。除了家人与你的亲密爱人以外，多数人都只能见到你风光的一面。总是神采奕奕，意气风发的样子，对于任何挑战都跃跃欲试，绝不逃避。唯有当你回到家，脱下防卫的盔甲，你才会表现内在的一面，显露挫败、灰心，和疲惫的真实感受。
◆选择Ｃ的人
你外表看起来对什么事都漫不在乎，好像无欲无求，自由自在，丝毫不受世俗的羁绊。事实上，你是害怕责任的束缚，看了很多的例子，你不愿意自己也跳入相同的陷阱中。所以你决定要让自己步履轻盈，灵巧跳过各种危难，把最困难的部分让其他人去处理，可以轻轻松松过著喜欢的生活。
◆选择Ｄ的人
你的潜意识认为自己是个平庸的人，生活也一成不变，内心觉得很无力。可是在朋友面前，你会努力找一些新奇的话题来聊，让自己看起来像是一个天真有趣的人。或许你什么都不太了解，却要装得很懂，这样才能够建立自信心与成就感。不过，最好的方法还是先肯定自己的实力，在无人注意时也能享受寂寞。
i had a hard time choosing betweem c and d. i ended up chosing c. actually both are quite true. hmmm...
Posted by alalsil at Wednesday, October 12, 2005
todays the last day of school where we actually still have to study, and tomorrow will be baccalaureate service, after which i will start intensive mugging. finally, no distractions. anyway, today was pretty crazy. at least the guys were damn crazy. hahaha, kt got "violated" by azad. kt's damn funny loh^_^. and hes a damn good teacher. i enjoy his lessons (though i think qq would beg to differ, hahaha) our NL10's door is a different, er, shape/ configuration/ conformation. er, haha, bio kicking in, hahaha. ha ha ha..ha..hmm... haha, had fun with our world map- plane. even though the number of times they threw the plane is also about the number of times the stupid plane kena me. of course i know the guys didnt do it on purpose lah, we are all friends mah, hahaha (better not have been on purpose, or else... hehehe... @$^//+*&^%^(*#@$#^~$^@* basically 你们会死得很残。)
actually really glad to be in sc8. cant say the same about being in ac, but my experience at ac has been great because i have a great class, and since your classmates are the people you see about all the time anyway in school, it doesnt matter so much if the rest of the people in the schools are not very nice (ok, so its not everyone lah). dont think theres any other class as mad or fun as our class loh. half the things we do in our NL cannot be repeated out of the room lah. will kena embarrassed like siao, a lot of trouble, embarrassed like siao, a lot of trouble, embarrassed like siao, embarrassed like siao or embarrassed like siao 0_00_0. yepp. 大曝光!!! a sample of things we do in class: playing pepsi cola at age 18 when primary school kids dont even play it anymore; playing dumb games and
giggling a lot while incorporating bio terms into it (uh, thats actually the good part) like concentration (remember: seminiferous tubules, bile canaliculi, etc..), big fish small fish, and other equally idiotic games; folding a whole map (that was uh, stunned 0_0) into a plane and flying all over the place and disrupting other classes' lessons. yepp, this are but a few things our class does. no biggie. ^_^ but while doing all this silly things and acting like "a couple of cuckoo birds" (as kt would put it, hahahaha^^) we had fun, we bonded and we got to know each other, and thats whats important^^. totally love sc8. hehe.
probably will have to kill myself if i had ended up in a class full of snobs that my dear school is so famous for (not that i had the misfortune to encounter these people though, try my very hardest to stay clear of them). actually i probably wouldnt have killed myself. i would have murdered them instead. i mean, why must i 牺牲自己? siao arh? of course get rid of those snobs lah.
will probably miss sc8 a lot. a damn lot, maybe. oh yah, and i will miss sleeping during assembly,muahhahah.
thanks guys, for the wonderful less- than- 2 years of jc life ^_^
Posted by alalsil at Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Friday, October 7
i cant wait for <恶作剧之吻> to be released in vcd.i cant wait for <恶作剧之吻> to be released in vcd in singapore.
i cant wait to watch <恶作剧之吻>.
i cant wait for a's to be finished.
i cant wait for a's to be finished so i can watch <恶作剧之吻>.
i cant wait to see 郑元畅 in <恶作剧之吻>......*starry- eyed*
very 帅 rite^^