Monday, May 11
yea, so not looking forward to going back to school for fyp tomorrow. am utterly clueless as to what im supposed to do and what is expected of me. ok, maybe not
utterly but still, bad enough. been following two people and doing bits and pieces of.. er, scientific stuff too bothersome to describe here. wasnt until last friday that i realized why nothing made much sense. cos the things i had been doing were sort of like the start and end of a, erm, process. finally saw the link after 5 days in the lab. so does not bode well for me. am doomed to bad fyp grade.
on another matter, wonder if i really should spend two years, nott to mention the money on something that i may not actually put to use in the future. honestly speaking, i have no freaking idea what i want to do in the future. what i would love to do is probably something that will never happen, or at least not very realistic to achieve anyway. really dont want to be stuck in a damn lab for the rest of my life. especially after having had a taste of it already, can most definitely say that lab sucks. is dry and boring, and have been eating suppers instead of dinners for the past few days, not counting the weekend of course.
blah, am bound to be a useless leech on society. am envious of people who know what they want to do too. is so lucky. bleah.
Posted by alalsil at Monday, May 11, 2009